Let's Get Real: I am stressed, tired, warn out
and I have heard more coughs, "mama" uttered a million times, tears
of exhaustion, and sighs from my hubs when I lose my patience. I have pushed
vitamins, meds, hydration, and naps. Disinfected, washed all the bedding
several times, cooked several pots of soup and other meals.
And I have been angry, short tempered, at the
end of my rope. I have yelled and had a huge fight with my husband who is SICK
with the flu. I am a horrible sinner and in the moments when my family
honestly deserves to have the BEST from me they have received some of my
worst.
Some of
my stress is self-imposed and in those moments, I need to realize that I have
to adjust my personal goals for the year (I have REALLY BIG realistic GOALS for
myself and family) and be flexible. I need to give myself some grace and
breathe.
This has been going on for a Month. One,
two, or all three of my loves have been sick with the flu or some other bug or
cold. It is just frustrating to say the least. I have not been able
to do my normal routine, as they have required more of me.
The main thing that I have not been able to do
is go to church and Bible study. Last Monday I was finally able to get
back to Bible study and today I was able to go to church.
Ruby and I are healthy and so I got us ready,
served Brock and H what they needed as they were both feeling horrible and
headed out. Our church is about 1 mile from our home and I had no concern
leaving Brock. I was able to chat with a few different people. Let
several know about Brock's condition as they knew he wasn't well and then I
settled in to send time with Jesus and learn more about his word.
I NEEDED THIS!
My faith and relationship is such a huge part of
my life. It is the main motivating factor to why I am who I
am. I wanted to share the song that was so impactful. It has been
my anthem this and my encouragement.
Reckless Love By: Cory Asbury
[Verse 1]
Before I spoke a word, You
were singing over me
You have been so, so good to me
Before I took a breath, You breathed Your life in me
You have been so, so kind to me
[Chorus]
O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
O, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine
I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah
[Verse 2]
When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me
You have been so, so good to me
When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me
You have been so, so kind to me
[Chorus]
O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
O, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine
I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah
There's no shadow You won't light up
Mountain You won't climb up
Coming after me
There's no wall You won't kick down
Lie You won't tear down
Coming after me
There's no shadow You won't light up
Mountain You won't climb up
Coming after me
There's no wall You won't kick down
Lie You won't tear down
Coming after me
There's no shadow You won't light up
Mountain You won't climb up
Coming after me
There's no wall You won't kick down
Lie You won't tear down
Coming after me
There's no shadow You won't light up
Mountain You won't climb up
Coming after me
There's no wall You won't kick down
Lie You won't tear down
Coming after me
You have been so, so good to me
Before I took a breath, You breathed Your life in me
You have been so, so kind to me
[Chorus]
O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
O, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine
I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah
[Verse 2]
When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me
You have been so, so good to me
When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me
You have been so, so kind to me
[Chorus]
O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
O, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine
I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah
There's no shadow You won't light up
Mountain You won't climb up
Coming after me
There's no wall You won't kick down
Lie You won't tear down
Coming after me
There's no shadow You won't light up
Mountain You won't climb up
Coming after me
There's no wall You won't kick down
Lie You won't tear down
Coming after me
There's no shadow You won't light up
Mountain You won't climb up
Coming after me
There's no wall You won't kick down
Lie You won't tear down
Coming after me
There's no shadow You won't light up
Mountain You won't climb up
Coming after me
There's no wall You won't kick down
Lie You won't tear down
Coming after me
And if you have read this far... Here is my
encouragement and the lesson that I learned:
1. GIVE YOURSELF GRACE! It is not easy to
be the one that is healthy is a house full of sickies.
2. Be flexible on the goals. It is awesome
to have big goals but sometimes life delays and people are more important than
goals.
3. Make sure you take care of yourself and find
the peace.
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